Archive for the ‘Zen teachings’ Category

chasing people & pony’s

January 23, 2010

why do i feel it’s my job chasing people? why don’t they just do the right thing? i am not the only one who was rasied with moral values but it seems that way at times. having to write to Canon’s president about software updates, why? this is how i feel.

pony skeleton head

lost pony

chasing the woman who backed into my car last week to save her money on her insurance and possibility myself from a rate hike. i’ve got enough to do in my life instead of chasing people. i don’t mind waiting as i am doing for the image selection from my entry in c4a motion juried show. just to add salt to my wounds those images won’t load here.

well i guess i’ll go about my day as a blank posting, there are days like that and then other days when a client calls to schedule a booking. woo hoo. so that’s life and the first noble truth.

maybe i’ll find another pony today.

Photography isn’t expensive

January 5, 2010

compared to restoring a muscle car. we are right in the middle of taking a piece of history from the junk yard and crusher and putting it under our butts. this is how we bought the car. looks good right?1970 xr7 red convertible

well we thought this was going to be a fun car and someday it maybe just that. so over a year later, 15 months, the car went into a body shop for major floor replacements. that’s what salt does to sheet metal.

1970 xr7 red convertible

1970 xr7 red convertible

passenger side floor

1970 xr7 red convertible

passenger floor & door

the white doors came all the way from california, mary and i had to put them on but first ream out new door hinge bushings and learn how to install and line up doors.

it’s a shame i don’t have before pictures but these are just the middle pictures because as you see there isn’t any interior in the car, nothing to sit on. it’s all sitting in marys basement and we are having a brunch get together latter this month and guess who is going to have to more all the parts.

oh i didn’t mention that the car needed a drivers side quarter panel, wheel wells, door striker post and a trunk floor.

1970 xr7 red convertible

trunk floor

1970 xr7 red convertible

trunk floor

but someday the car will look as good as we first saw it on that rainy day in long island.

1970 xr7 red convertible

as first seen

considering all my photography gear 4×5 graflex, n1 contax, hassy 503, f1 canon, yashica 120, 5D Mll & 20D it all pales in comparison to this project. going back to our original plan to tour the southwest of america with the top down, wind blowing in our hair, shooting Laszlo Kovacs style pictures is the final plan.

so maybe we’ll see you along the way between blast of air horns from the knights of the road. be sure to say hello.

jene

www.jeneyoutt.com

winter solstice

December 23, 2009

last winter i convinced mary to go up to st johns the divine to hear paul winters winter solstice celebration. living in new york one has exposure to all these wonderful events. i think it took me 28 years before i made my first solstice celebration so now i’ve made two of them.

this was something i though her grand daughters might enjoy but they are still too young or maybe they will never enjoy a music concert, mary doesn’t think it would be their cup of tea.

but we enjoyed it, maybe not as visual as the summer celebration i first saw but then again is anything able to match our first time at anything? for years i tried to match how great i felt or thought i felt with my first cigarette, although it might have been nauseous but cool. glad that’s over with.

at least now the day will be lengthening and it will soon be time to shed our wraps and let our bodies bask in the sun, woop tee do. i love bodies even this strange one appearing in my mirror everyday. were did that Michelangelo di Lodovico Buonarroti Simoni body go?

but if you’ve been putting this off as i had done for years, i suggest you circle the date , mark you ical or what ever it is you do on 6/1/10 and look at living music site to book your tickets for the summer solstice celebration. st johns  is a wonderful music venue and maybe something will be reborn in you to sing and dance as if nobody is watching which they aren’t.

hey i even bought two cds so i can connect with those moments again lying in bed with my honey and howling at the moon. whooooooo . try it you might like it.

lost another point of light in photography, John Daido Loori Roshi

October 28, 2009

this month October we, the world at large, lost another great photographer and teacher. John Daido Loori 1931-2009.

it was my priviledge to have a few conversations with John Daido Loori Roshi zen priest , teacher, photographer and human being.

I’ve only met him a few times in a casual setting, once at a Change Your Mind day sponsored by Tricycle magazine where he was speaking about his Mountains and Rivers order to the assembled buddhist group sitting on the grassy field in central park. i found him to be a very generous man.

i had asked him a question about reincarnation which other buddhist traditions teach and had been brought up earlier that day. as i recall he said that as far as our atoms being released back into the primordial soup to begin again as some other entity that was about all one could expect.i think he respected all creation and i know he fought hard to preserve his sanctuary and woodland around zen mountain for all beings. his art reflected his spiritual life.

john was an artist/photographer who had studied with Minor White i had always wanted to do a workshop at Zen Mountain Monastery with john. but you know how life is, there was always something getting in the way of taking the time for myself either be it work or money but it never came to be. that is one of my regrets in life.

i have all two of his photography books which if you ever get the chance to do buy. they are still in print at the Monastery Store and the one on creativity.

Making Love With Light is a wonderful study of John’s photography, Zen poems and essays.

Hearing With the Eye are photos from Point , California, makes one remember wandering all sorts of beaches

The Zen of Creativity is about John’s insight on creativity and life. not so much about color photography but more on the creative process as a whole.

i’ve linked these to the monastery store because i believe in supporting the teachings that have helped me. i am sure they can be had from amazon books but i’ve never looked for them there.

I’ve never sat at the monastery nor with john. i do belong to other Buddhist groups namely the Insight Meditation Society and New York Insight but Zen teachers have had a large influence on me beginning with Alan Watts and a non buddhist teacher J.Krishnamurti whom i did see give talks in new york way back when. all of their teachings are still available on-line and in printed form.

i have a very good friend who is a member of the Mountains and Rivers sangha whom i talked to as soon as i learned of john’s illness which even though it’s a big part of the teachings imperemance of this world and time his passing did make me sad. it gives me some comfort to know there are good people in the world even though i don’t know them nor see them regularly it’s just nice to realize they are there.

it’s a big part of metta practice and teachings, to know there are other people in this world wishing me happiness and a good life, even though i don’t know them, they are there. i can be connected to then and this world, even though it’s just a ball of mud and water waiting for its time to evaporate and us along with it. we might as well have some fun and laughs along the way and know that we are loved for who we are.

i just wanted to acknowledge my special feelings about john and other people i’ve come across on my path. yes i felt the loss of this lost point of light, but life goes on until it doesn’t.